Usually when I write things in this blog, they are meant for Universal perspective. But… for this one, I feel like taking the veil off to reveal a true interpretation of the deepest part of my expression…
It has been over a month since I let go of being the old person I was. I was a person that was ONLY showing the world a way of thinking that was inside my mind and NOT real inside my world. Believe it or not, my words have helped many. The amount of emails and messages sent to me daily showcasing this impact is truly appreciated and I thank you all for every message telling me the amount of gratitude you have towards my thoughts. But… to be honest with you, I have to be honest with myself first… The old person showing all these interpretations of life was living a lie. I was helping many but I wasn’t helping the most important person in this world…. myself…
I went on a viscious cycle thinking that I was completely unlimited…unlimited in the sense that everything was ok, a limit.
I built a terrible addiction to alcohol, marijuana and cigarettes. So terrible of an addiction that my health was being affected drastically. My body would shut down for a minimum of 12 hours during sleep and my mental was having difficulty remembering anything. My life was so toxic, that the people around me mirrored my actions. I was in a world of incredible illusion. And the saddest thing about this whole thing was that it was ok with me to live this way, while still questioning my own actions and not changing them. I was giving the world a helping touch in changing their own lives with words full of meaning, but with no substance for myself…
But then suddenly…
A massive realization occurred to me while on my trip to Tokyo Japan. Everything that happened in Tokyo was part of a dream meant for me to find change. Vibrational Number Theory was experienced so much, enough to the point where each sighting of my number was a definite guiding sign from the Universe to the events I needed to experience and the people I needed to meet. There were many people around me that I barely met telling me that they appreciate everything I’m doing and they saw the potential in helping change the world for the better. I got to experience many things in Tokyo, but one of the biggest things I experienced was a day that made me see what true life was. To experience a whole day in the sense of seeing someone watching me kill myself with every puff of a cigarette, or every gulp of an alcoholic beverage. To stare at their eyes with such sadness that it rippled into my Soul, revealing the true character that needed change within me. The vibes of an angel brought forth to help change my life.
On my last day in Tokyo, I decided to do something. To let go of the old me…
I asked the Universe for forgiveness and that all my actions towards myself were something that were meant to be experienced, to be able to show the world that we are all experiencing life together differently, but the same. And as soon as I let go, I experienced another day full of miracles and many more after that.
To live in a world of illusion, you end up killing yourself in a cycle that doesn’t make sense to the order of the natural law. To take life for granted is something that is unnatural and deadly, we end up killing ourselves and the people around us. I was living a lie and I’ll be the first to admit it, because to admit something that is true is the beginning step to gaining awareness. And once awareness has been found, you start to change. And when you start to change, you and the people all around you start to evolve into something beyond yourselves…
My life is great now…
I have been clean from any external substance for over a month now and intend to keep it that way…
To find clarity to life requires consistent focus and is something that is never found, but is always progressing.
Be honest and true to yourself and the people around you…
You never know who’s life you might end up changing forever…
-Odmt
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